How can you tell?

I started this blog because I wanted to "change the world."  Apparently it's not working, people especially African Americans still treat me and others who suffer from Bipolar and other mental disabilities like the "Out Break Monkeys" I live by this quote and have spit it from my mouth so many times I lost count years ago, "What you think about me just don't matter." So having said that, I will still attempt to change "my world" and  write about my day to day struggles with mental illness and maintaining my definition of a "normal" life.  I will still strive to shed light on this "white elephant" in the room in the African American community but I will focus more on my wellness.  I can't save the world if I'm locked up now can I?

I have no idea if anyone is reading this blog, it would probably help if I promoted it on the many social media outlets I indulge in.  Anyway my question of the day to Bipolars and the people who love us is...How can you tell when you're manic or entering into mania?

At first I really couldn't gauge my mania because I'm always moving too fast to pay attention.  I'm also A.D.H.D so that plays a part in me being able to tell what's going on as well.  So I tried to slow my life down as much as I could and I started paying attention to my different swings, thought patterns and behaviors.  After doing this I had my very on "Aha" moment!  SEX!!!! That's how I know, my sex drive has always been a very healthy one, but when I'm in a cycle my sex drive is OFF THE CHARTS!  I'm like a drug addict looking for his next fix, I want sex all the time during mania and I have it :) ALL THE TIME! Then just like that the light switch turns off and I'm back to the Bipolar standard of normal.  I do experience racing thoughts, a flight pattern of ideas and I become very agitated and aggressive when I'm entering into or am in the throws of  Mania but SEX is the dominating actor in my show.  So pinpointing this I've taken some actions...NO I'm not going to stop having sex or should I say SAFE SEX...let me just say I BELIEVE in SAFE SEX, one of my nicknames amongst family and friends is the Condom QUEEN!  I am going to try other activities before I engage and see if that quiets the beast, my guys (I have 2 fellas whom I love dearly, it's an open thang!)won't be happy with this but they'll live!

I never discussed my increased sex drive with my head shrink-er, I guess I need too, can I just tell y'all I love my doctor!!! He is Awesomely AWESOME, the best decision I ever made was breaking up with that wench who had not only misdiagnosed me but also over medicated my ass!  Had me walking around like a damn zombie LITERALLY!  That's another post, but maybe Dr. U can provide some insight and other coping skills I can try and use.  Wait...now that I think of it, I LOVE SEX, and I'm 39 I'm not getting any younger, and another one of my mottos is Don't waste your "pretty" Soooo never mind  when I feel my need for sex increasing I'm going to indulge!!!!!!! I'm just going to do like I've always done and that's be SAFE and HAVE FUN!  And for the record I'm not manic right now nor am I depressed, I'm just even...depression was trying to creep in a couple of days ago, but I refused to indulge him.